I am 32 and starting over.
I have fallen in love...really in love. So all the frogs out there thanks for the kisses, but I found a prince.
Not a prince, a Knight.
He is the Knight to my heart.
This is a new relationship for me, scary, exciting, fun..everything I have always wanted since I can remember.
I was with a "frog" before, a retard in tinfoil if you must ..and I gave him all I had. Or at least I thought I did.
I knew and prayed that there be someone out there to love me, care for me and treat me the way I or we as woman want to me treated.
I reserved what I had left of me, I saved it for my knight. And I finally found him or he found me
or we found each other. Either way here we are and here I am happy and deeply in love.
He saved me, he picked me up when I was down and made me really open my eyes to love and life.
He calls me his treasure, but he is mine. My life is now complete. That missing piece I was looking for, longing for is in my arms, in my heart, in my soul.
I have fears though, that I will push him away.. I am not a secure one when it comes to relationships, the only one I had for 13 years ended bad. We were married and now divorced. I wore a door mat for some time and was always put to the back, look good ,stay quiet. I was back burner material. So I am scared that this relationship will be the same or maybe that I will make it this way because that is all I know truthfully.
I know I deserve to be happy, he, my Knight deserves to be happy... and I am trying everyday to change my insecurities... I fear it will be a battle of the mind. My heart knows one thing but my mind is telling me another..Listen to the heart...Listen to the heart... I need to repeat that over and over. Our minds are out greatest enemies. We are all deserving of love, deserving of happiness, deserving of a Knight.
I found mine, and I will do my best to make my head be in line with my heart.
