The Second Time Around

I am 32 and starting over. 

I have fallen in love...really in love. So all the frogs out there thanks for the kisses, but I found a prince.

 Not a prince, a Knight. 

He is the Knight to my heart. 

This is a new relationship for me, scary, exciting, fun..everything I have always wanted since I can remember.

I was with a "frog" before,   a retard in tinfoil if you must  ..and I gave him all I had. Or at least I thought I did.

I knew and prayed that there be someone out there to love me, care for me and treat me the way I or we as woman want to me treated. 

I reserved what I had left of me, I saved it for my knight. And I finally found him or he found me

or we found each other. Either way here we are and here I am happy and deeply in love. 

He saved me, he picked me up when I was down and made me really open my eyes to love and life. 

He calls me his treasure, but he is mine. My life is now complete. That missing piece I was looking for, longing for is in my arms, in my heart, in my soul. 

I have fears though, that I will push him away.. I am not a secure one when it comes to relationships, the only one I had for 13 years ended bad. We were married and now divorced. I wore a door mat for some time and was always put to the back, look good ,stay quiet. I was back burner material. So I am scared that this relationship will be the same or maybe that I will make it this way because that is all I know truthfully. 

I know I deserve to be happy, he, my Knight deserves to be happy... and I am trying everyday to change my insecurities... I fear it will be a battle of the mind. My heart knows one thing but my mind is telling me another..Listen to the heart...Listen to the heart... I need to repeat that over and over. Our minds are out greatest enemies. We are all deserving of love, deserving of happiness, deserving of a Knight. 

I found mine, and I will do my best to make my head be in line with my heart.